Reflecting on my own journey through loss and grief, I've come to understand the profound power of journaling amidst the pain. Losing loved ones, especially without the chance to bid them farewell, can stir up a whirlwind of emotions—guilt, regret, and an ache for closure. I've felt these emotions firsthand, particularly when my dear sisters passed away.
In moments of deep sorrow, I yearned for one final opportunity to express my love and gratitude. I rushed across states, hoping to be by their side in their last moments. However, fate had its own plans, and I was informed of their passing before I even boarded the plane. The burden of not having the chance to say goodbye weighed heavily on my heart. It was more literal for me since they both passed the day that I flew out to say my goodbyes.
While grieving both their loss, I stumbled upon my journals—they stood as witnesses to the chapters of my life highlighting our journeys. Long before their passing, I had poured out my love, memories, and gratitude for my sisters within these vulnerable pages. These journals, some spanning over 15 years, became my sanctuary, offering a deep sense of connection to the souls I cherished. I had proof that I appreciated them because my mind told me differently.
Journaling brought healing and reaffirmed my love; it gave the realization that my words had carried weight long before their passing. As I shared my journals with my Marine Corps sister, I witnessed how my expressions of love and appreciation touched her deeply. Through recounting shared adventures, heartfelt conversations, and vulnerable moments, each word written became a testament to the profound impact of their presence in my life. It was bigger than just penning my thoughts.
To those battling the pain of loss, I urge you to pen down your feelings. Although the letters will not be delivered to them, writing can serve as a balm for the soul. Capture the memories you shared, the love you felt, and the impact they had on your life. In doing so, you create a sacred space within your heart—a place where their essence will forever reside.
Masterpieces, if you find yourself mourning the loss of a loved one, remember that writing can offer clarity in the storm. Write about the laughter, the tears, and the cherished moments you shared. Tell them how their presence shaped your life and yes, even say goodbye. Let your words be a tribute to their memory, a beacon of light in the darkness of grief.
With Heartfelt Ink,
Phyllis G. Williams
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